Only my second message on here but really struggling with life atm
Mum died 6 weeks ago and I feel lost
I have always suffered with depression and I feel I am going dwn hill fast
I have spoke to docs and I was given some anxiety tablets and told to see how I go.
I dread opening my eyes most mornings
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Hello
I know it’s so hard without them
But your mum would hate you feeling like this
My husband died then 9 months later my mum died so I totally get how you are feeling
I started to write in a journal how angry I was at life for taking both of them
I think it helped me release all my emotions without offending anyone
Some say live life so that your loved ones can see it through your eyes
Which is a nice thought
Come on this site and talk
Share your emotions no one will judge you
Talking to each other does give you the strength to carry on
Take care
Xx
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@Marypoppins1968 I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I lost my partner 4 weeks ago, she was only 27 and i lost my dad 13 years ago. This pain is so awful, but like @Scottie10 says coming on here really helps, people are so lovely and very supportive.
I’m writing my partner Stacie a letter, I’m on page 24 now, and going to put it in with her before her cremation next week, but I’m going to carry on writing to her afterwards as well, i find it really helps. Please speak on here anytime. I hope your doctors helps you too. Take care
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Hello.
I’m really sorry. Its a terrible shock isn’t it losing your mum.
I have too. At Christmas time.
It’s a stunned feeling and a feeling like your inner child is looking for her. It’s such a trauma I feel.
Have you gone back to work or managed to do anything each day?
I found myself back at work 4 days after she died. The shock of it I found I was working on routine and fumes.
I’m not sure now a few months later it was the right thing or not.
The grief has changed and a realisation is dawning on me as well as floating in and out of shock.
I feel sick most of the time and want to run away and heal. Our something.
Your feelings are numb I imagine.
And it’s terrible the anxiety. I have this too. It’s suffocating isn’t it.
It’s good you have gone for some help.
Talking how you feel can be a balm on the pain.
I’m so sorry for you. All you can do is one step at a time. If that a half day then so be it.
Be kind to yourself xx