Why is it somedays i feel ok and feel upbeat but the next day i feel so low and just what to sit and cry. Yesterday was a good day but woke up today with a unbelievable dread in my stomach for no apparent reason just a overwhelming feeling that i cant seem to get over. Is this normal, i dont know whats normal anymore. Just had to drop car off at garage another problem hubby would have sorted. It seems so hard this life we have . 
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I think that we are all on a roller coaster. Some days are better than others but then we seem to pay for it big time.
It always hits hard when something crops up that our partners would have sorted out. And it seems to be Sod’s Law that so many things go wrong. Maybe they would have sorted problems out without even mentioning them. Keep plodding on, my friend, everything you feel is normal.
Hugs and strength. Xx
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Hi Misprint,
This perfectly describes my experiences too. Yesterday I was busy, non stop all day, I accomplished everything which was required of me. None of it done with much cheeriness but it was all done. Today? I have been crying since I opened my eyes, the dread is there, the emptiness and the hopelessness too.
On a podcast I listened to they described the theory of oscillating grief and I found this interesting. These swings between abject despair and then ‘coping’ or even feeling not much of anything are framed in terms of the brain processing what’s going on.
Whether this knowledge/insight is useful or not remains to be seen. But it has sort of helped me, as I know that either state, being in despair or feeling nothing much at all will not last. That means however, even on a ‘good’ day, I know there’s a swing to a bad day round the corner.
Take care. Be gentle with yourself. I’ll try and do the same xx
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Yes I also have days like this too. One day im fine doing things the next in flood of tears x
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