Hi everyone.
I find holidays difficult. I work in education and when im off in the holidays things hit me more. I get flash backs and think of my lovely mum often. I think im coming out of the denial stage. Its taken over a year. Mum died in November 23. I have to keep busy.
And today the cortisol has risen in my body i can tell as feel unfocused and tense.
I have to keep telling myself ive been through alot so its bound to effect me.
How are you? Thanks for reading.xx
I’m really sorry about your mum Cadbury - losing a parent is like losing a limb and an integral part of yourself.
I have found that time moves very differently after grief. Sometimes it feels like it happened yesterday and other times it feels like it happened years ago. But it’s on days where you’re maybe not busy that things feel like they’re just in the forefront of your mind constantly. (For me I tackle a lot of guilt and regret too which isn’t fun). I think the denial stage is a particularly long and hard one to deal with.
I’m sorry you’re having a not great day - you’re doing your best and you are right. You’ve been through the worst thing a person can experience. You have to be kind to yourself.
I hope tomorrow is that bit better xx