Hello
I don’t know where to start if I’m honest, my head is spinning and I’m really struggling with everything again. I had a meeting with the hospital bereavement team this week to discuss my partners stay back in March before he passed away, this meeting has revealed so many things that I wasn’t aware of that happened to him before he was taken to critical care, I was hoping that it would help me get some clarity but now I’m feeling like he suffered from what happened to him , my heart has been broken in to a million pieces again. I’m feeling like life is so hard how do I carry on
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So sorry for your loss @Sarahj80.
It’s very early days for you and everything will feel very raw. All you can do at this stage is to try to look after yourself. Keep hydrated, eat sensibly even if it’s just snacks, exercise if you can and sleep when you feel tired. This is not something you want to do on your own so, get some help. The list of things to do after a bereavement can be daunting so, don’t be shy in asking family members or friends to lend a hand.
Keep posting on this forum. It does help.
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Hello Sarahj80, so sorry for the loss of your husband, I know what you’re going through. I lost my husband in March of this year, also in the hospital. In ICU , . It seems like there’s always unanswered questions as to what happened. My husband had been in the hospital for about a week with pneumonia, he had oxygen, they kept monitoring it…I saw him that last night. I went home, they called me in the middle of the night to tell me they moved him to the ICU…he was sedated, with a tube down his throat, i wasn’t able to talk to him again, he passed away 2 weeks later. …hes already gone, and I don’t think I’d want to know all that happened , it wouldn’t do me any good to know, and its nothing that the hospital did or didn’t do, it was his time , i suppose. 
…I just pray he didn’t suffer. He was my everything and I miss him way toooo much. Take care of yourself and may God give you the peace you need, 
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