i never processed the loss of him, and i dont know if its possible for me to because i feel things so intensely. i was in emotional agony for so long, where i genuinely developed psychosis symptoms, depression, mania and the wholeeee lot! i would have breakdowns that were so intense but i never reached a point of peace after it, i would become somewhat numb and exhausted. after a while, i had less breakdowns. i feel things to the same intensity, but differently. ive learned to live with the loss of him, but not very well. i get triggered and i spiral or shut it out. i can feel the grief suppressed inside me and it spills out without notice. i know that the way out is through, but ive tried and i dont think i have the strength to feel it all. i dont want to live like this, how and when does it get better? what can i do?
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Hello there
Im now 32wks in from losing my beloved daughter Elizabeth aged 31yrs to SUDEP.
Some days I don’t want to get out of bed and grief hurts.
Its ok to feel like you do its the grieving process. Its different for everyone so don’t be hard on yourself just do whatever you want.
Everyone on here is going through the same so please reach out.
Take care
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