I lost my Dad in October, and this week marks my 22nd birthday and my first without my Dad. He was a huge part of my life, we spoke everyday without fail and these last four months without hearing his voice have been the most painful.
My Dad died suddenly of a heart attack and I had to race home from University, but sadly I was too late to say goodbye. I have some many unanswered questions, so many stories I wanted to tell him and questions about life I never got to ask.
I’ve been up and down these last four months, but with my birthday coming up, it has set in that he will not be there to wish my a happy birthday, or later this year, see me graduate.
Although I had support at the beginning, it’s as if my friends have completely forgotten about me. My mum has her grief to deal with, and I almost resent the support she has had from her friends, because I have had so little from mine. It’s the loneliness and isolation that has been the worst.
It’s the thought that no one cares and that your grief is somewhat less, as this was going to happen eventually, I just wished it was not so soon and he could have seen me live more of my life before he left.
How have others been able to cope, especially when you are young and the death was sudden and unexpected?