Goodnight all
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Another day starts. It’s a lot colder this morning with temp at 55, but at least not raining yet.
Hope you all have as good a day as you can. 
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@Johnr
Good morning all.
It’s not too bad weather wise here so holiday washing on the go.
I’m feeling very sorry for myself and tearful for John but I need to try n pull myself together and get back to how I was before the holiday.
Maybe something to do with the fact I’ve come back with Covid and feel really rough to be honest as has my roommate from the hols…
Enjoy the day as best we can…
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You too John.
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Morning Mitzi. Nothing changes on this horrible journey we are all making, does it?
The rollercoaster of grief affects us all. 
You take it easy. Holiday washing can wait until you feel better.
Look after yourself 
Morning Jim.
Take care
Morning everyone,
Washer on,had a shower,had a cry,whats next on this crap path.
Mitzi1 hope you start to feel better soon.
Brummy i hope you managed yesterday ok ?
Johnr take care,
Every one else i hope you have as good day as you can.
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We all seem to have similar days. 
I’m going to try a meet-up at a local cafe this afternoon. It’s for people, mainly bereaved, divorced or single who just want to chat. It’s only a couple of hours and, assuming it’s not pouring down, I can walk there.
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Morning everyone another week begins. Work for me today at least its a distraction have as good a monday as you all can
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Morning i have just been fighting with myself to get out off bed for work its the same every day got up again crying for my beautiful wifei am so heartbroken i really dont want to go to work but i have to i am at work but not if you know what i mean and its allso my sons birthday today i haven’t even got him anything it was all my wife who was so organised and had everything all done i have said to the councillor that i dont even feel like a father my ex partner understands and my kids understands what i am going through but that dont make me feel good i said to the councillor i dont want to be hear i am really struggling i just miss my wife so much
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Morning Daisy. You take care in work.
Morning. It’s a struggle, but we have to try and learn to live with this. I know it’s hard. I lost my love of 60 years, just over 20 weeks ago and I’m absolutely heartbroken. 
But I and the rest of us have to look after ourselves, for the sake of our families and friends. You go to work and get your son something for his birthday.
Take care
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Love01,
We all understand. Sue was my rock,my everything. I now have no confidence in myself. It’s hard but yet we keep going, thats all we can do.
Johnr i hope your group meeting goes ok.
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@Johnr
Morning all,
Sorry I don’t want to bring anyone down further but the thought of other week without my beloved husband depresses me so much.
Weekends are just as bad. Did nothing but laid down on the sofa for most of the weekend just listening to the clock ticking. Strange I never used to hear it when my beloved Ian was here.
I don’t think I’ll ever get used to the silence and loneliness.
Today though Ive got to walk my son’s dog so I’ve got to leave the house and after that I’ll drive to a place where Ian and I used to love going to.
Thanks for all of your posts they give me comfort in reminding me im not the only one on this devastating journey.
Have a good day all.
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I know what you mean, i dread weekends and do even less. It’s mornings for me waking up and realising another day without are loved ones. Just anothet ground hog day.
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It’s so hard I know. My Jackie went in March as well and I miss her so much.
You are definitley not on your own on this dreadful journey. I just hope that both of us, in fact all of us, can eventually find some comfort, however small, to help us through what remains of our lives.
You look after yourself.
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I would like you all to put just one positive thing in your posts once a day, It only needs to be something small. Something must go right in your day.
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Thank you everyone i know i need to try but i just cant seem to it is so difficult i just keep thinking about my wife and the trumma i am suffering is hard i am still in shock and i keep thinking how and why did this happen they was absolutely no sign of anything wrong up til the last min i miss her so much her sweet kind voice we where stuck together like glue now it hurts as she is not with me i was her hero but i could not save her a d this kills me i think about her every min of every day i know we are all in the same boat but i dont have anyone to help me through this when i say i am all alone i actually mean i am nobody just me in our forever full with memories and dreams we should have been happy this week as we would ha e been both finishing up for a 2 week holiday now that wont be the case
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Dear Love01,
I think you are so strong for going back to work at such an early stage of your grief. I know you said you’ve no choice but you are doing it, you’re getting out of bed, and you’re in work. That’s achievement in itself.
I finished work to take care of my husband, im 19 weeks in and I still don’t feel strong enough to return to work.
I know we all say it but try not to think of the future so much. Just concentrate on today. Set yourself a little task, and I know it’s hard, but go and buy a birthday card and gift for your son as he must be grieving so much as well.
Try and stay strong❤️
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I am not strong i am.so weak i only back to get out the house as i have nothing else i just work and home i told my boss i might be hear but i am not my mind is not on the job i just ha e to try pay the bills its hard on your own it was just my wife and i 2 wages now just 1 i am struggling with the sud3 loss of my wife i just want to be with her
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