I lost my 23 year old son 11/14/2025. I can’t begin to describe the amount of pain I’m in. Everyday I wake up and it’s another day I have to live without him. I walk past his room door everyday with no sound coming from it at the dinner table his seat is empty, his car is in the same place he left it. I absolutely hate my life…
I hate the emptiness I feel, I hate that I can’t just give up because I have an amazing husband, daughter and my oldest son…but I feel so alone in this… as much as my family want to support me I don’t want it… I want to be alone trying to figure out how does my son get hit by a car his life taken and the person that did it walks, face no charges because she had the right of way. Her speed according to the detective was not taking into consideration because my son was crossing the street when he did not have the right of way.
I’m not at peace, I’m not happy, I’m not ok…
The pain I’m feeling is beyond me…
I am so sorry, @Tasha333, I can hear the agony in your post.
I just wanted to give your thread a gentle bump. I also wanted to share this link with you. BRAKE support people who have been bereaved by road crashes. It’s a free service and they offer both practical and emotional support. You can find out more on their website:
For support:
Keep reaching out and take care,
Seaneen
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Hi Tasha. Unfortunately, I know pain too. My son was not hit by a car, he died at a resort. his life was either taken by a doctor who was stupid and neglectful or someone hurt him i am unsure of which, but he died as a result of someone else when he could have, should have, been saved just like your son. No one was blamed in his death either. You must be mortified. No one really knows or can feel the same pain as a mother can.
i am so sorry for your loss. I feel like how do we go on with so many questions, how can we move past any of this… I find myself in my head a lot wondering if my son suffered…. Thoughts like that replay over and over.
I can’t imagine what you’re feeling…
I don’t feel my days getting any easier either. I don’t know if you believe in GOD but I’m also, struggling with my faith… I’m just a mess.
Thanks for your reply Tasha. I think the only reason I am still here is GOD! Other than that, I have no idea what I am doing, I too am a mess! I am thinking of all the same things you are as well. I dunno when/if things will get better, it’s been 2 years, how long has it been for you?
My son passed way on November 14th of 2025. The holidays were not good. I had presents for him, it was all bad. I have a 18 year old daughter who goes on his room to feel closer. I can’t even walk in there. I also, have a 35 year old son who received the call from the Medical Examiner office… my husband is trying his best to support us but he too is a mess.
I need to keep my faith in a good place because God has pulled me through many situations. Loosing my son wreck my entire world and I am trying to stay above water.
Thank you for responding and if it’s ok I will send you messages checking in on you…
you send me a message anytime! I don’t want to share this nightmare with anyone because it’s just so so awful but unfortunately, other mom’s have lost their beautiful babies too. Its just so real and so unimaginable. I used to hear about moms loosing their kids and thought how awful would that be! never thought something like this could happen. I feel lost, I feel stuck, I feel like I can’t breathe! Christmas must have been awful for you Tasha, you bought him presents?! Oh how that must have hurt, I can’t imagine! My heart reaches for you. You have other children and that is a good thing. I have another son and that is a good thing. That won’t change the way you feel though, I know. 1 of these days you will get the courage to go into his room. I don’t know what that will be like for you, other than hard. Maybe looking at his things may make you smile or maybe your not there yet, its only been a little over a year. These things take time, more time for some, less for others and I don’t know why but I do know that we as moms will always carry pain because our love has no place to go. Don’t let God go! He will help you through as impossible as it may seem and yes God has helped me quite a great deal and I continue to put my trust in Him to help me because God seems to be the only thing that can!
I am so happy to be about to continue to talk to you. It has been four months since I lost my son and yes, I try and shop early and had already purchased some gifts. Thanksgiving was only a few days after his passing and I didn’t want to do anything.
I feel like our stories are a little similar which makes it so nice to talk to you. I often feel like a bother to others because I’m always crying… and I feel like no one really gets me.
I plan on praying more for sure… I am still struggling at why he had to go so young, no kids, not married. It hurts so bad and for minute i question GOD why, why take him so soon.
Hi Tasha, no wonder you didn’t want to do anything! I don’t think you are bothering anyone and quite honestly I get your crying, I cry so hard I puke so I get it, totally. My son wasn’t married, no girlfriend, no kids, nothing either. They were too young and too much life yet to live. I buried my parents, that’s natural. I buried my son when he was supposed to one day bury me, it goes against the grain of what is natural and normal. it’s the absolute worst thing that can ever happen and the pain is excruciating. I am sorry you have to go through this, would be nice to wake up from this nightmare