How to grieve

Hi I’m Ellie.
I don’t know what I’m doing here, but I thought it couldn’t hurt at least.
I lost one of my best friends to suicide in May. She had struggled for a while, but it was so out of the blue and I had been dealing with my own shit at the time.
I’m not sure how to cope with my guilt about not being there for her as I should have been.

I don’t know how to grieve. I’ve never been religious so when it came down to coping with her death, I really didn’t know how to. I’m still trying to figure it out.

It will be my birthday in December, and I’ll be 21 but she won’t be 22 in February. She’s always been older, I don’t think I can stomach growing older than her. Feels wrong.

I hope someone else can relate.

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Hello @elliegh,

I’m so sorry to hear about your best friend. It sounds as though things are very hard at the moment and you are feeling guilty that you should have been there more for her.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share these links with you to help you with your grief.

You might already be familiar with our other Online Bereavement Support services, but if not, you can find out more about our Online Counselling service, our Grief Coach text support service, and our Grief Guide self-help tools by visiting the link.

You may also wish to take a look at the following websites and organisations offering support to people who have been bereaved by suicide:

Take care - and do keep reaching out here,

Lizzie, Sue Ryder

I hope you can be kind to yourself, it is hard to lose someone in this way.
There’s no right way to grieve, but taking care of yourself is a good way to honour yr friend