Hi
I lost my daughter she was 39 leaving two young children
Her death was not expected we was blue lighted to the hospital at 3 in the morning to say goodbye
I miss her every day I do cry , I am angry I go through the motions of living but part of me went that night
You will feel like your on autopilot
Stay strong one day at a time is all you can do
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Hi Mobe
Please don’t beat yourself up, it is still very early days for you. We can’t accept what has happened but we need to accept it will never go away. They say it will get better, we need to accept that it will take time. In one way I don’t want to move on yet, it’s only been 16 weeks for me, because of my crying I feel I am keeping her with me if that makes sense. Tears of love flow for her
We are like this because we love our children, talk to people to explain you can’t help it. That you need their support.
We have to figure out how to come to terms with what actually happened when my daughter passed away. We might get to know with the inquest but I don’t think we will get any real answers. So we will be left guessing which is heartbreaking in itself.
They are our precious babies and the knowing we will never see them again is unbearable. My daughter was 33, her death was a shock to us. She was my baby who I just want to put my arms around to protect her. But I can’t do that anymore which is breaking my heart. 
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It’s horrible which ever way they go. Our daughter could have been saved and be with us now had someone have acted sooner. She was so beautiful inside and out. Was so kind with everyone but fell for someone she thought she could help, she had her own problems but always helped others and not herself.
We will miss her forever. I am just existing to be honest. The pain in my heart has erased any fun I should be having. It hurts so much.
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Beautiful and all
Yes, existing. That’s what I am doing. The grief is so exhausting so I am glad I sleep a lot, it’s my escape.
Biggest love to us all. x
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Signs are here for me too. My husband and I went to visit a sick auntie, we went to pick up some flowers to take with us, our daughter Caren had told us she would go with us next time we visited the auntie but unfortunately never happened The only flowers they had left in the shop were pink roses , Caren’s favourite colour and Flowers by Miley Cyrus played on the radio, Caren liked that song.
So I believe Caren did come with us in spirit.
It’s not fair we only have photos and memories left, we can’t make new ones.
People say that the memories will help but I wanted Caren to have many more years making more memories. It’s not right.
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Oh gosh I am exactly the same! I ask why why why did our beautiful daughter have to leave us so soon. I feel I failed her, I feel so guilty I didn’t reply her last message to me that night in a better way. I simply didn’t understand she was feeling so down. I will forever feel guilt about it. I should have talked more compassionately to her, but mental health isn’t an easy topic for them so it’s difficult to sit and chat about it.
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I get people telling me how well I look. I don’t ‘look’ well inside my heart is aching.
I have done nothing but eat and sit since my daughter’s passing, I am a comfort eater.
We all go through this horrendous journey in different ways but we all have one thing in common - heartache
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