I lost my husband very suddenly to a heart attack almost 5 months ago.It almost feels like so long ago some days.It has passed in a blur.I have had quite a few ‘biggies’ as I call them since,my elder sons wedding, my husband and younger sons brthday and a family holiday,all of which should be occasions to cherish and look forward to although the sadness and anxiety of them because he is not part of them has marred them for me.
I have returned to work etc and ‘normal life’ as such but find it so exhausting to put on the happy,sociable person that i feel family and ppl need me to be.
I get asked 'how are you? ’ and always reply ‘I’m ok’ because its easier to reply that way than to go into detail of how I’m really feeling.it makes people feel awkward . Everytime i feel im coping ok, a wave of sadness hits
Hi @Jane72
I’m just past the 5 month mark and it so hard isn’t it.
We are definitely not ok. It sometimes it’s too hard to explain or share out sadness and despair.
I’m so sorry you are here with this community but hopefully you will find some support and comfort.
Sending much love and strength to you. X
6 months for me, and I feel like I’m going through the motions of life. Completely understand about saying you’re ok when you’re clearly not. I get upset sometimes (maybe irrationally) as I think to myself “do these people not realise how broken I am” especially at work, when I might appear ok.
Sending hugs and strength your way x
When people ask me how i am i cant bring myself to say ok its only been 4 weeks for me. i always say surviving as thats all you can do i guess survive each moment and come through the other end. I wish you all the best xx
Today my daughter said what a truly terrible thing I have been through; I feel she is the only one who gets it. He is gone. I will never see him again or have the chance to speak to him. Although she doesn’t mention it often, I realise that she rings me every day and texts me each evening to tell me how much I mean to her. Others seem to be waiting for me to get back to normal, with no chance of me breaking down in their presence.
Only we on this site can comprehend.
Thankyou all.it does help in a way, to know others are feeling the same