I cannot do it!

I had an appointment with the Orthotics Department this afternoon. When I was planning the journey on my scooter, I couldn’t stop crying because it was always my husband who used to drive me there. I called them and asked to cancel the appointment, as I didn’t believe I could make it. The receptionist was incredibly supportive and encouraged me to try and attend.

I then called my neighbour, an 80-year-old lady, and explained what I needed to say to the Orthotics doctor, just in case I couldn’t speak for myself once I got there. We took a taxi, and she kindly accompanied me.

I was so sad and tearful but still managed to speak for myself. What lovely people they are! I hope that next time, when I need to go back to get the new orthotics fitted, I’ll be OK. But I really doubt it. My tears keep on falling when I just think about next visit!

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Bless you and well done for going to your appointment you should feel proud of yourself for going as that took alot of courage to go

@Sam08092024 I’m sorry for your loss. Well done for trying your very best when going to an appointment is the last thing you want to do.

I lost my husband in March. He died in his sleep - Sudden Adult Death Syndrome.

The unfairness of our loss will hit us every day. Small things remind us. We also have to take on our partner’s roles as well. I had to learn to drive my husbands large car when all I’m used to is my battered old small car. He also manged the household finances and I’ve had to learn a lot of things quickly.

Today was a bad day for me too. I understand how you feel. I cried when I had to tell the bank that “my husband had passed away”. That phrase hurts so much.

Please keep posting/messaging because we’re all in the same position and are able to understand.

Warmest of hugs.
P.

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