I cant cry

My dad died suddenly on friday and i cant cry. He was my rock my hero and my best friend. He was 68 and i thought he was invincible. Im hurting so badly but cant cry. Im scared if i start i wont stop and i have a son , my mom and sisters to take care of. I cant crumble.

Hi dea
Sorry to read of your loss I lost my mum 8 years ago this November. I was like you I found it hard to cry but one day I had a moment to myself and man did I did I let it all out. I had days where I did nothing but cry. Then there were days I kept telling myself pull yourself together and a friend of mine said you don’t have to say that to yourself you are allowed to show your emotions. I was so scared of losing it and that grief is a journey not a destination that you have to cry tears. It won’t heal you but it’s a very normal reaction to trauma of grief.
So when you’re ready you cry and if you never feel you want to stop then don’t stop.
Take care