Hi everyone,
I lost my father in law to pulmonary fibrosis a month ago. He was 65 and had been diagnosed for about a year and half. He had great care both in and out of hospital in Northamptonshire.
I have been quite strong throughout for my wife and have been trying to prepare her for the worst over that period. She is from a large family with three other siblings who got to see him more often than her due to living further away.
Since his death, that we were at, she has taken it much harder than any of her siblings and my mother in law. She feels anger and guilt for not being there with him more when he was ill. She had her work and children that kept her occupied.
She was half expecting that he would come through it either through the use of drugs or a lung transplant. I kept saying the chances were very low, which she would dismiss. She feels like her siblings and mum are all doing well and getting on with life.
I am trying to comfort her, talk to her. But often get a blank expression. Telling her to talk to her friends and family who have been through it had helped a bit. Telling her that dad is in a better place, as he was really suffering towards the end. But to no avail.
I have not lost anyone as close, so I can not tell what she is going through. She has taken a sick note from the doctors…but I’m not sure if that is helping and has had trouble sleeping since the death with the use of tablets as well. The lack of sleep and the thoughts of her dad all the time are really worrying me and not sure what I can do.
So I am coming to this forum for some advice on if I am doing the right thing or is there something else I can do. I know people say it takes time and it will never get easier for her, but it just kills me and the kids to see her like this , and feeling helpless and don’t want her spiralling downwards where I cant get her back from.
thank you for reading and any advice is much appreciated.