hey.
I don’t really know where to start.
I lost my grandad in early October. And I blame the NHS.
And in all honesty, I don’t know how to feel. I feel robbed. I feel hurt. But I feel nothing at the same time.
From what my family told me, had an operation on his hip. Had some difficulty breathing, but then improved. Few hours later, passed away. I live 5 minutes from the local hospital, not a single call or message to go say goodbye. I got a text in the morning. I don’t even know how to explain it. Right now, I cannot stand my mum, my auntie and my nan. I don’t want to talk to them.
The worst part for me is no chance to say goodbye. No funeral. Just random messages with updates.
I can’t grieve. I can’t understand how or why it happened. I can’t understood the actions of my family. I’m so hurt. I don’t know what to do. I don’t see the point in much anymore, but I have no one to tell.