My husband died 2 weeks ago. He was recovering from throat cancer which started last year but his swallow was still affected. He was improving though, so we moved house in February & had the full move and packing etc so he wouldn’t feel he had to do too much-we’d put it off during Covid and his cancer treatment and he wanted to move so his family could visit from the USA and stay with us.
3 weeks after we moved he was still feeling exhausted (we had both been so tired from the move, we put it down to that), he went to the GP who thought he had an infection. No meds worked so he went back for a blood test and was rushed to hospital on March 2nd when the results showed all his blood cells were dangerously low. They thought it was sepsis but a biopsy showed Acute Myeloid Leukaemia. It took about 5-6 weeks for all the results to come in. He had chemotherapy but a second biopsy showed it hadn’t worked. He died on 18th May, 5 days after coming home.
I am devastated! I’m trying to do all the things I’m supposed to, inform the right people etc. I fluctuate a lot at the moment, sometimes feeling on top of things, then, like today, just crying all the time. I cannot get used to my amazing husband bring reduced to a series of administrative tasks to erase him from everything! Everything I do feels wrong.
The funeral is next week as I had to wait for his family to arrive from Texas. I will miss him forever. We were so compatible and I had never felt that before. I love him so much and can’t believe he’s not here with me.