Hi, so erm I lost my Mom just over a month ago, it was really sudden and I found her that morning. She was ok the night before and then she was just gone forever. I don’t think you can ever be prepared to lose your Mom, but we were best friends, we lived together, I told her everything and she was my go to person. I feel so robbed of what time I should have gotten with her and so broken. I keep leaving the house and going out to do things because being here I just feel so alone and like I’m going to fall to pieces and never be able to put it back. When she died it was like my soul was ripped away with her and I just don’t know how to do this. I’m 31 and there’s so much she will never see. We had so many plans and I thought she would be here for so long. I took it for granted, and I took her for granted. All she does and how she keeps me going. I really don’t know how to do life without her and planning her funeral was making me hold it together. But that was last week. I have to face picking her ashes up and I feel like the moment I do that, it’s over. But she doesn’t deserve to be left there. I just, I’m so scared.
There was so much she was supposed to do and we were supposed to do and I don’t know how to do this or who I am without her.