I lost my partner, best friend, my soul mate suddenly 3 weeks ago at home i had to do cpr on him he was only 46 and im really struggling to come to terms with it, his funeral was yesterday and i thought that would maybe help me to accept the fact he is gone but i just cannot process it i cant function i cant concentrate i am totally heartbroken i have never felt grief like this before and im finding it really hard as he died in the bedroom so i cant sleep in there anymore as i can just see him lying there and keep replaying it over and over in my head i dont know who to talk to or where to turn i just feel so desperate now for the pain to ease a little
Any advice would be greatly appreciated as i dont know what to do without him 
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I am so sorry to hear this. 46 is so young. 3 weeks is such a short time ago. It is such a huge shock for you…impossible to process. My husband died suddenly 12 weeks ago as we were chatting in bed. I too had to do CPR. I feel I failed him and keep saying to him that I’m so sorry I couldn’t save him. Each day is different. Is there anyone you can talk to? We need to find others who understand, to help us through this time. Sometimes I sleep a few hours at night but this last night I have been awake and feeling anxious. Its ok to not be ok. Am praying for you.
Hello, I have the same story. He had a cardiac arrest in bed, I did CPR until help arrived. I thought he was going to make it, he lived for 3 weeks in a coma until life support was terminated.
That was 10 weeks ago. What you are feeling is normal. The shock is awesome and terrible. The guilty feeling is also normal, I thought I had failed him, too. I think having to do the CPR leaves us with something similar to PTSD.
I don’t have a magic potion or cure for your/our pain. Just take one hour at a time, do whatever you can to look after yourself. Keep posting here and reading what others have written.
I do feel less broken than I did in the first month. I don’t cry all the time and I have found small periods of respite.
Wishing you strength and sending hugs. Xx
So sorry for your loss 
The community is here for you
Everything you mention is perfectly normal,
I get flashbacks when I go into my Dad’s old bedroom and he passed away in hospital!
Do you have family or friends you can stay with for a little while?
Have you spoken with your GP?
Sign up for some counselling, most organisations won’t start until 4 months after a loved one’s passing but for my experience it’s certainly beneficial.
In the meantime remember this Community is here and the Samaritans are always there 24/7 if you find yourself in Crisis.
It’s perfectly ok to not be ok at the moment and take care
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Thank u for all ur kind words its comforting to know that other ppl r feeling the same that this is normal im trying to stay strong for my son i cant have him seeing the broken mess i am hes hurting too but the more i try hide my emotions from him i feel like im on autopilot just trying to lock it all away in my head so i dont feel this pain i have an appointment with gp tomorrow hopefully find a eay thru it
My Peter died suddenly in the garden 14 months ago at The tIme I was just numb with shock.Now I think I have ptsd it creeps into my mind everything that happened and I feel panicky I tell myself don’t go there and do something to take my mind off it,it’s horrible