I am autistic, in my thirties. I had lived with my mother almost all my life. She was my only family member and my only friend. She was the only person who loved me and the only person whom I loved.
Now she is dead, very suddenly and unexpectedly.
I would like to have religious faith. I don’t. I don’t believe that she is watching over me or that she can hear me when I cry out to her, that she lives because the atoms that once made up her body are still around or that she lives because I remember her. I believe, because there is zero evidence to suggest anything else, that her consciousness has been blotted out totally and permanently.
So what do I do?
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Hello @RSJsdaughter,
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling about your sudden and unexpected loss. I’m so sorry to hear about your mother. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you may wish to look at these Sue Ryder resources which might be helpful.
You might also want to read Losing a parent - coping with the death of a parent | Sue Ryder
I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Alex