I just sit and watch videos I’ve got on my phone of my husband and looking how happy we all were and now i just sit here thinking about him all the time. I go out and when i come home i just hate being alone and I’m so lonely without him 
8 weeks tomorrow and it’s horrible just horrible without him and I’m trying to get back doing things but to be honest i don’t want to do anything anymore. I see so many of you are trying new things or getting back into things you did. Wish I could find some get up and go 
feel like I’m rotting away each day
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I am going into week 8 and trust me when I say I am not doing or trying new things. Mostly isolated I stay away from people because my sadness surfaces with no warning and I’m not ready to socialize. Like you, I revisit his videos and the photo montage with music we created for his celebration of life. Be true to yourself, that’s the only thing I think we can do with our grieving, be honest about it. No matter what we do, even if it’s running an errand, coming back home to the absence of our husband is a tough reality. A warm hug to you.
Viajera i just don’t know what to thank or feel right now and I do what i have to do and then i just sit watching how happy we were and now I’m so miserable and sad 
everything in the house is where my husband left it before he went into hospital. Thinking of you x
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Judy it is still very early days and you are in shock. I’m 14 weeks in tomorrow and have had a terrible day today just sitting in silence, tears and no concentration whatsoever.
I am not motivated to do anything but have learnt to ignore it. It is a wasted day but just need to get through it, hoping things will feel better tomorrow
Sending a big hug 
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Judy10 like you I have videos of my husband. I’m so glad I do because my memory is awful. Like you I cry over the happiness we had. I have many photos but the ones where I’m taking the picture and he’s so close smiling at me they make me ache to touch his face
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So sorry @Judy10. It’s still very early for you; at 8 weeks I certainly wasn’t trying new things, I was just trying to get from one day to the next. Sending hugs.
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Catrin 1 i know it’s early days and like you all it’s just so painful and day’s just go by. Thinking of you x
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Woolly I’m always the one taking pictures and videos and my house is full of my husband and I’ve not moved anything and i just cry day on day out and i feel for you all x
Jody i really feel your pain and i cry day in day out and each day seems to be more sad and 8 week’s tomorrow and i feels like forever 
hope a better day for you tomorrow x
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I’m over 4 months now and the sadness is still overwhelming.
I have started a couple of new activities as I need some distraction and a way to find a possible break from the constant sadness - but it is only temporary. I struggle to motivate myself to do everyday tasks and still have not been able to return to work.
I’ve been away walking with my youngest daughter the last few days and everything just reminds me of my husband and that he should be doing this with us.
I feel sad for me and my kids but more and more for my husband who died so young and without being able to enjoy seeing his kids grow up, graduate, have their own families and to grow old with me.
I feel like this pain will never end and life will feel like this forever. I honestly don’t know how people ever manage to get through this - does it ever get any better ?
Feel like I’m just acting a part everyday which is really just one big nightmare.
Thanks for listening. Just needed to get that out.
Sleep well to those still awake and on this site xx
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Roni52 morning and it’s been 8 weeks today since my husband died and i feel like you. I don’t want to do anything and all the places we go is where we went with my husband and it’s horrible. The reason I get up every day is for my son and i sit and do nothing most of the day and do the things i have to do. My husband would want me to fight for our family and he would want me to have a life. But it’s so so difficult to move forward without him 
i hope things get better for us all x
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Yes @Judy10 - my husband would be getting annoyed at me now being so low and not getting back to life.
But he never knew or understood just how much his loss has impacted on me and his kids. I don’t think you can unless you go through it and I’m glad he didn’t have to feel all this pain and sadness.
I had no comprehension of how hard it is - and I was so naive promising him I would look after the kids and not waste my life without him. I do get up every day for them and my dog - but boy is it hard some days.
I find when I plan something that I would normally have really enjoyed the days after are just so much worse. It makes me want to not bother and try to just “zombie” my way through this.
But that’s not really going to help me in the long run.
Just gotta keep going I suppose - one step at a time.
Others on here have reassured us that it does get easier, so I need to try put my faith in that.
Sending some strength and love for a tough day ahead xxx
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Yeah i know it really isn’t easy and getting up everyday is hard to face another day without them here and like you our children or animals need us to get up and fight for them and somehow make a new life. Sunny 
days make me sad because my husband loved the sun and we would go for walks and now it’s not the same. But we just keep going and hopefully one day it will get a little better for us all. Sending hugs to you all 
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