Hello. I want my mum just one moment a nice cuddle wrap my arms around my mum.
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Aww, bless you. How nice it would be to have one last hug. My husband gave the best hugs. Trouble is @Steven one hug would never be enough and if we knew it was the last hug we would never let go. 
Hi crazy Kate.
Yeah that is the trouble I wouldn’t want to let go. I know one thing why did you leave me
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Correction. I’d ask why you left me.
It feels like an ache inside sometimes, because i so want a hug and to feel his face next to mine. He was taken from me just Over 2 years ago, we were ,married 50 I miss him so much. I no he would not mind me telling you but Every night for 50 years, (apart from a few weeks he had to go away ),he would always put his arm around me last thing at night no matter what. Even if we had a disagreement he would still do it. I miss that so much. I have a cushion.with a picture printed of his face on it, i take that to bed with me . It makes me think he is next to me. Not sure mentally if this is a good thing , but i get some comfort from it. At the moment i just grab at what ever comfort i can. This road seems very long, i wonder if it will ever get any better. Can anyone give me any idea. Apart from that awful fog dispersing, things havnt really changed. I just want him back.
To me it’s a permanent ache I feel every second every minute of every day. It’s there knawing away. That’s what grief does.
If I could have that one moment it would be better than nothing at least I would have seen my mum. Off course it would be hard to accept that I only got that one moment
I sleep in the middle of a superking size bed. I have one of his pillows against my back, it feels like he is snuggled up to me, and I hug his other pillow. Daft, unhealthy, I neither know nor care. If it gives comfort, it’s healthy.
In answer to how long grief lasts. I was married twice, I continued to love and miss my first husband even though I loved my second husband just as much. The pain started to diminish so slowly it was not noticeable. Not a day has passed that I don’t think of Richard, but after a couple of years, my thoughts of him were with gratitude rather than pain. My second husband was widowed, he understood.
For me, I tell myself that I was the “Happy Ever After” for both of them. From the moment we said our vows, I made them happy for the rest of their lives.
I just hold that thought.
I appreciate that it must be difficult to believe that you can love two men absolutely, but I did, and still do. Just like I love my two children equally.
The agony of loss does diminish with time if you allow it to.
Sending love and hugs. Xx
To have one more chance for a quick chat or hug from the many I have lost in the last year 
like its been said already though you wouldnt want to let go 
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I really understand this. I lost my dad earlier this year, all I ever think about is one last chat, one more cuddle, one last silly dad joke.
I’d do anything to go back and spend 5 minutes with him. What I find comforting is talking to him and feeling as if he is around looking out for me. I know he is there, and I’m grateful for every memory I’ve had with him, even though it will never be enough, I will always be blessed with having such an amazing dad in the first place 
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