I lose my dad and brother 5 weeks apart last year

I feeling down at the moment I’ve lost my dad and brother 5 weeks apart from each other last year I am find very difficult to coupe with it my mum and sisters are not helping nor my husband I am find it difficult on my own my heart torn apart from it sometimes I blame myself my brother death not seen him a lot I didn’t get told till three day later I never got to stay good by until I see him in the chapel of rest it didn’t feel the same we bother was so close year apart when we was born. My dad it was different I never went to see him because he didn’t want me to but it was hard to let go it basically shock me when I lost both of them last year I find difficult to speak to people how I feel even my husband because sometime my husband doesn’t listen to me he doesn’t know how I feel because he never asked no one I find it to difficult to tell anyone about it it hurt me too much to speak about it

Hi, i am sorry for both your losses.
Mine is slightly different i lost my dad on Christmas day 2024. Then i lost my wife on the 25th of January. Which to be honest has knocked the crap out of me.
My gp got in touch with the local hospice and i have been seeing their councillor for about 8 weeks, which has helped me. A safe place to talk about everything, even things you can’t tell family or friends for fear of upsetting them. So it might be better to have a word with your gp.
Take care