I lost my beautiful soulmate

My partner of 12 years passed away suddenly on 7th May. He was just 58 years old He was not poorly, so was a massive shock to me. I’m absolutely devasted we had so many plans for our future. We ran our business together, sat at our desks facing each other every day. We socialised together, every weekend. We were together nearly every moment of the day and night. He was my soulmate my best friend. We adored and loved each other so much. I’m finding it so unbearable to think that I will never see him again. Its killing me. He was so well loved by all who knew him. I feel blessed for the wonderful years i we spent together. But in reality I just can’t see any life without him. The pain is so hard to bear. I miss him so much. I simply can’t fiction and experiencing constant anxiety attacks. Oh God why !!

My husband was 66 when He died at the beginning of April.Like you I’m deveststed because he had only just retired and we had planned to do so much in our retirement .
We did so much together so Im finding it hard to adjust to bring alone especially, in the evenings when Iconstantly cry. Iam now voping inbthe dsy time by kerping busy, joining new groups,and making sure I have something planned for each day . Its not easy but it stops me grieving when I am ocvupied. We have to be strong if we are to pull thtough this ordeal. Like you I feel that the pain within is ripping me apart .
I have a strong faith that’s helping me to be strong, I pray regularly .Be strong, Katy

Hello Geri - firstly I want to give you a warm welcome to our Online Community. I hope that you will find some comfort from joining us, and hearing from others who, like you, have lost a loved one.
It must have been such a terrible shock for you when your beloved partner died a month ago. I expect you are feeling rather numb at the moment, and it must be really difficult to accept what has happened. It sounds as if you had a wonderful relationship with your partner, as you both spent a large part of your time with each other. I think it’s probably best if you don’t think ahead too much for a while, as your life has changed so suddenly. Please try and look after yourself, and talk about how you’re feeling to friends or family.
If you haven’t done so already, it may help if you go and see your GP. They may be able to offer you extra support. I am thinking of you Geri at this sad time. Kind regards, Jackie

Hi Katy

Thank you so much for your response. Its comforting to know that people understand what you are going through and how you are feeling. I’m so sorry for your loss of your husband, and so sad for you, that you didn’t get the chance to enjoy the future you had planned together. Life is so cruel!! I have found some comfort talking to people on this site, as we are all experiencing the same traumatic loss At the moment I can’t or do want to even climb out of bed, but I will try to do something tomorrow.

I’m so sorry for your pain, hopefully, one day we will get through this awful time.
Thank you again.
Take care xx

Hi Jackie

Thank you so much for your response.

my doctor came to see me at home and persrcribed sleeping tablets and antidepressants. I didn’t want to take them but I know I need help. I am totally devastated. I lost my dear mum, suddenly 5 years ago and went into a very dark place. I hit me so badly that 6 months later I was diagnosed with lupus. Which came with many complications including pneumonia. I was very poorly for many months, but Steve pulled me through it he looked after me so lovingly and ever since as always been there for me. He was my soulmate. I never imagined he would be gone. There was no warning, he wasn’t poorly. I tried to do chest compressions but it was too late. I can’t imagine my life without him. Thank you again. Xx