A couple weeks ago I lost my best friend, the person I’ve known my whole life. We stayed next door to one another & grew up together.
Unfortunately, she took her own life & I don’t know how to deal with it. I’m struggling to come to terms with it and to accept it. I did what I thought would help by going to see her in the rest-room, I attended the funeral to say my final goodbyes but I still can’t help but feel as though I can’t accept it. I feel lost, broken, hurt, confused… all these emotions are so overpowering and overwhelming. I don’t know how to move on.
Since the death, I’m loosing sleep, eating more than usual, I find myself being more lazy & snapping at people so easily.
I don’t really know if I have a question or anything here I guess I just needed to say this to someone.
Welcome to the Community. I am sorry to hear of the loss of your best friend.
It is good that you have reached out here and every emotion you are going through is perfectly normal. It is part of the grieving process.
Sue Ryder here has information and advice on how to cope with grief and bereavement.
There is also support on this forum which will connect you to community members under the heading Suicide who have experienced what you are going through.
There are also other organisations too which can help and support you and they are Sudden, they provide support after a sudden death and SOBS, (Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide) and they have a helpline on 0300 111 5065 9am -9pm Monday to Sunday for someone to talk to.
I also think it would be worth considering booking an appointment with your GP to discuss how you are feeling and to be referred for counselling should you so wish and to see if there are any local support groups in your area.
Please continue to reach out. You are not alone and we are here for you. If you would like any further information please email email@example.com.