I lost my mum nearly 2 weeks ago. She was diagnosed suddenly with terminal cancer 4 weeks ago. It was out of the blue and completely shocked all of us. When she left hospital we were told she had months left, maybe longer. Unfortunately she was only home a week when she sadly lost her battle. It was very traumatic. We were lucky to have spent that short time with mum, saying goodbye and talking to her but I just can’t get over the shock. My mum was my best friend and one of my biggest support systems. I feel completely lost without her. I just keep thinking how could she walk into the hospital completely ok and walk out 2 weeks later with terminal cancer and a completely different person. Life can be truly cruel and it is very hard to deal with.
I think I’m just trying to reach out because I’m finding this very difficult at the moment. Thank you for listening.
Hi @Ejt1986,
I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my mum last year to cancer, such a horrible and cruel disease. Like your mum, my mum was my best friend and my biggest support too, what i would give to hear her voice or a hug 
its so unfair we had to say goodbye.
I remember the early days of my mum’s death of feeling numb, i think i was in shock and was too busy making sure my dad and brothers were ok, along with organising the funeral etc. i also kept myself busy this last year and a bit, not realising it to keep the hurt at bay and now its seems to have caught up with me. I’m trying to now accept the feelings i’m feeling everyday and just going with it. If i need to cry, no matter where i am, i’m going to cry, i’ve had moments on the bus, in the queue for shopping, buttering toast etc. but i cant hold it in anymore. I also went to see my GP who was amazing and prescribed me some medication for anxiety, which i’m not going to lie, was very reluctant at taking as i thought “i was strong” but turns out i need a bit help and i now know thats ok. Take each day or even hour as it comes, cry if you need to, shout if you need to, post on here, but get it out. your not alone, we understand. Sending hugs Xxx
Hello,
i know exactly howyou feel i lost my mum in April to cancer. she went into hospital and with in just over a week she passed which was out of the blue,
i was with her holding her on my own until she passed. This was such a hard thing to do as she didn’t go peacefully 
and i was on my own.
i miss her voice so much 
im sorry you ars going through this too. x
Hi, When I saw your post, it was as if I could have written it myself My mum went into hospital 6 weeks ago with severe back pain, was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and died 3 weeks later at home. It was very traumatic for me to watch and wasn’t peaceful and I cant get the images out of my head. Im having bad dreams every night. I feel since the funeral, it has hit me more. I dont have any advice for you at the moment but just want to say im so sorry you have gone through this too as I know how you feel 