Dave I’m getting like that mate I’m 51 my back my knees lol I bet you’re in better shape than me lol
I am older than you mate look forward to getting old .i am 69 ina few weeks,are you finding it helps texeting on here .it helps a bit you can ask questions to people in the same situation as you as i said i do not look that old
I am so tired today i need a full nights sleep even after nearly 6 months lossing my wife still can not sleep without waking up 5 times. Maybe more. Xx
Dave it doesn’t matter what age you are mate, if you’re going what we’re all going through it’s horrible I wouldn’t wish it anyone, my sleeping is all over the place as well
Age is number. But i still need a full night’s sleep.we will all get better i know that time is a good healer so they say .so you back at work are you alright at work mate
Yes I’m ok Dave in work only another 2and half hours and I’ve finished for the day 
Gonna have some lunch then i have got to go shop and see some family .dicuss something no idea what xx
Hello beachwalks,
I totally get your situation, like you i was widowed at 35 after 10 years, i met and married another lovely man was married 31 years i lost him in November 24, i am lost , shopping for 1, eating alone, nobody really understands this unless they have been there, people in the street or supermarket are laughing getting on with their lives, whilst inside the anger i feel i just want to scream and throw things , i know its frustration i find it difficult to control, i
try not to think to much about anything as i go into freefall, not a good place
to be. My 13 year old dog has been my rock he is my family. Take care beachwalks i wish you well.
Hi sussexlass. So sorry to read about what you’ve been through. Yes it is a horrible feeling no body seems to give the support that used to be years ago. I hate the shopping no interest . Friends and family just think just have to get on with it.
My husbands family have never contacted me since funeral in September but I knew that would happen it was very obvious that day . They don’t live here so at least I don’t need to bump into them. I have my dog and gives me a purpose to get up in the morning.
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I haven’t heard from Mark’s family since he was in hospital, they didnt even come to funeral.
My family dont live near me and both our kids have grown up and left home.
When he retired from the army 2 years ago we bought our house which was supposed to be our forever home, now its just a house.
Hi Beachwalks
Thank you for you kind message, it does seems we are left to cope and just get on with it , i do find weekends particularly stressful, apart from walking the dog i dont want to go out, i do find this site a lifeline, so many people in the same/ similar situation looking for help and answers. I truly believe the NHS failed my David and now the government are failing not only me but 1000s just leaving us to cope. Sorry to ramble Take care beachwalks.
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Hi sussexlass. No your not rambling I find my self talking to my self sometimes,
When I think back now to at least early 2024 and it was constantly chest infections and antibiotics and he was becoming lethargic and breathless , by June 2024 he was very unwell so tired not eating not doing anything, was admitted to hospital he had various scans and then 8 days later doctor said what scans had showed It was in 3 areas it was to advanced for treatment , I often wander what was going through his mind .
So many if , but why was it not found sooner, and then to only live for 8 weeks , I try not to dwell on it , and there are so many people out there going through all this emotional turmoil and it just turns your life upside down. It’s such a suffocating feeling I know it is for me
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I get you, the NHS and the hospital department failed my husband too.
Your story is just like mine, in the summer he was having trouble breathing, painful every time he went to the toilet big blood clots. It took all his energy just to go as it was so painful and he couldn’t eat.
When he was taken into hospital it had gone past his lymph nodes and into his lungs and nothing they could do as it spread to fast. They gave him a couple of months, he was gone in 10 days
Hi Poppet1973
I do feel he was let down by the NHS, the thought of myself going onto the NHS merry go round fills me with dread, i have no faith in the system, thats how i feel.
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I have put in a complaint with PALS. My husband promised me that I would carry it out when he was in the hospital. He wants to stop them from destroying another family. All we wanted is them to own up to what they did
After he passed away, everyone kept telling me how bad the hospital is