Hi I honestly never thought I would ever be able to write this because the pain is still as raw as it was when I lost her 
my lisa was my everything my rock my partner my soul mate best friend we were together 13 wonderful years and then one morning I got up to go to the bathroom and she was at the bottom of the stairs my world completely crumbled that day I had to watch her fight for her life for 19 days it was traumatic watching her fight so hard to stay with me but it just wasn’t meant to be she passed on 26th September 2024 my whole life shattered even 7 months in the pain is still exactly the same I will never get over losing her she was the light of everyone’s life not just mine, everyone said it would get easier but I’m still in full blown grief, I feel like the rest of my life has been robbed from me and I know I will never get over losing her my heart is completely shattered I miss her so much 
I lost my wonderful Beverley after 13 years so I know how you feel. Though it has only been 2 months for me. She was 49 and it was so sudden. Everyone here, is here for each other. I hope you get the help you need.
Thank you 
I know so young my lisa was only 53 no age to be taken I hope you are okay too
Thank you. We have very similar circumstances. I hope this is some comfort.
I am, sorry for your loss.
I’m a little behnd you at 14 weeks. I know how you feel. We were married for 33 years, what now were the best years of my life. People on here i am afraid know what you are going through so if you need to rant or ramble. Then do so i have found it helps. Please take care and look after yourself.
I know what you’re going through. I am at exactly the same stage as you. I lost my wife 18th October 2024. She was fit and healthy but Cancer took her from us very quickly and she battled right to the very end. We were together for 44 years we met when she was only 17 years old. The only advice I can give you is you will have good and bad days embrace the good days and on the bad days… ( just take care of yourself)
Hi.I am a few months in front of you.I lost my husband of 43 yrs after he had a heart attack in bed next to me.He was 59.I tried my best but I couldn’t save him.It does get easier in the sense you adapt to a different life but the pain of losing him so suddenly still hurts very much.Hoping year 2 will be better.Just try keep going and remembering the good times.That’s what I do.
Yes some days I can just about get through then other days like today I have sobbed all day even sat outside supermarket in my car watching couples shop together is too hard something we did together now I don’t even eat meals it’s no fun eating alone so most days don’t eat I don’t know one person in my life that has lost their partner so they don’t understand the pain of everyday life without your soulmate beside you! It’s good to know that you lovely people on here understand the pain I’m going through and I feel for you all aswell it’s so hard thank you for your kind words 
@Dimples74
So very sorry for your loss.
Yes we all understand on here just how it feels to lose our soulmates whether we have been with them for a long or short time it is devastating.
It’s a totally different grief because we chose that partner who we fell in love with so we mourn everything about them. The friendship, the closeness, the secrets we shared, our rock who would never let us down, mother or father of our children it’s never ending what they mean to us…
We can only hope time will make it a least a bit easier to bear.
You really do understand and I’m so sorry for your loss too i know it can’t be easy for you after all those years together but all those memories you have so nice that you have all them this is what I’m thankful for so many beautiful memories and laughter!
Oh so sorry this was meant for @Jamfaz
Thank you lovely your kind words are much appreciated I’m so sorry you are newly grieving too
It’s ok only just getting used to how all this works myself.x
Sending you my heartfelt love, I know how devastating it is to lose the one you love so much. It’s a constant struggle to go on with a life that is not the one you planned. All the dreams of the future, shattered in an instant,
Take care, you are not alone xxx
Thank you that’s so nice I just wish I would have joined sooner as iv done all this grieving alone no one understands unless you have lost a partner hope you are doing okay too sending hugs n love 
Thank you!
I am glad you have joined this group, it helps a lot because we all understand how grief affects us.
I am doing the best I can, just day by day xx
I feel your pain i lost my husband my soul mate on 19th April. I sometimes struggle to breath and my heart feels like its been torn to shreds but his precious daughter who i love as my own still lives with me so i need to keep going. I just want to be with him so badly 
we where only together for 13 years but they where the happiest of my life. We have his funeral this week and i just want to do him proud.
Lynski, So sorry for your loss, and that you have started on this hard journey. We on here are all on that journey. It is all very recent for you, Please be kind to yourself, I do hope that the funeral goes well and that it helps getting that over. I am positive that he would be very proud of you. Come on here for a chat we do truly understand. I find that it does help me.
So sorry I know your heart feels like it’s torn to shreads mine too I don’t think I will ever get over losing the most beautiful human ever created and 13 years is a long time there’s no only about it that’s a lot of memories to hold onto I still cry every day some more than others but you will find the strength to do him proud I promise you will sending virtual stay strong
@Lynski
So sorry for what you’re going through, it is a nightmare for sure.
You will do your soulmate proud n don’t doubt that. I don’t know quite where we get the strength from but we seem to.
I did 7 weeks ago and then crawled under duvet for a few days. It’s the toughest time of our lives and there’s no easy answer. Just be kind to yourself.
Keep coming on here because it does help.