Ss for all my msgs. It’s been a truly horrible day today. I am coping some days and others not to well, and days like today not coping at all. I was going out for a day out in town but while walking around for 1/2 hour or so I started filling up, so I went to the bustop to go bk home. Bk home and I have never cried so much with feelings of I will never Se se her again. I don’t have memories of my partner in my home as I moved just after her passing, I’m sure she planned it this way while she was in hospital, because after I walked in she smiled and I grabbed her hand and kissed it so hard and told he I loved her and she replied with the same. I had not been out of hospital myself maybe a week and a half as I could not walk far and had to take things easy. Within days her family got in touch and said they were picking me up and that’s where this story started. I stayed holding her hand for 2 days while she was unconscious, the rest I don’t remember as I had a breakdown and was taken away and my partner passed 2 days later. Maybe she didn’t want me to see the passing as I was fragile with my health my heart is not to good have copd. She cared more for me than herself. I always thought I would go first but god with his wisdom took my stunning soul partner first. Hope there is another life as I will find her as she with me. Our love was so so strong and a lot of this aligned to make us soul partners. I’m so proud to have met her. Love you all.
So hard to share and to read David but well done and thank you. It is so so sad to lose someone who was and is so loved. You are brave and you will survive. So many of us live for the time we will be with our loved ones again. Take care my friend.
Ty Jim 19 years a girlfriend and the rest of my life. Only weeks but a lifetime in my head. Missed eternally. Ty again for your ever so kind words.
Dear David13,
I am so sorry for your sad loss. You were both very much in love and when you were with her holding her hand for 2 days she will have known.
Your health also mattered though David. I wish l could have gone First but we don’t decide and it’s like being left all alone - despite having family.
I have to believe my darling Paul is waiting for me as l seem to get a lot of little ‘messages’ and signs it keeps me sane. We never got to do the travelling retirement but l wouldn’t have missed a moment without him. He was so wonderful and loving.
Love to all feeling the loss of a much loved person. 
🪻:rose:
I was so so sorry reading your reply, I to ask for signs of being around me occasionally and I get them. I don’t ask a lot. Today is the best I have felt after a really bad grief day yesterday. I hope the grief you feel eases if only for a day. My prayers and love goes to you 