I thought I was doing so well, seven months into my grief. But now it seems to have started all over again. Almost unbearable.
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Hello @Bonnie3,
I’m so sorry that things feel almost unbearable right now. Grief can come in waves, and it’s very understandable to feel overwhelmed again even after feeling you were managing a little better.
I’m just giving your thread a gentle “bump” for you - hopefully others will be along to share some support.
Take care,
Harriet
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Thank you so much, Harriet.
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Hi Bonnie, I have just gone through a week which was like one of the first weeks. The feeling of utter despair, pain and crying all day. I hope these moments are just through backs, realisation that our reality is now something very different to what we were expecting.
Wishing you all the best
Tom
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Hi Bonnie,
So sorry to hear you have been having a tough time. I’ve spent many years working in healthcare, and I have been fortunate enough not to lose anyone close to me in my 61 years. I have been very grateful for this. I recently lost my beautiful dad, and spent many times in tears away from sight in the weeks preceding his death. When dad died I felt unnerved by grief as I had no idea how it would play out for me. None of us do I guess. I initially felt the numbness that people speak of , and I felt slightly unnerved at what was to come. I still do. We’re into our third month now since we lost dad, and yesterday I had the lowest day ever. My motivation was so low, I was lost, lonely and so desperately sad. I just didn’t know what to do with myself. In contrast today has been so so different.
My point is that it seems like grief is a bit of an unknown quantity - it has no rhyme or reason to it. There is no order to feelings, it just takes you by surprise sometimes when you least expect it. Be kind to yourself Bonnie and remember you are not alone. Know that you will move through it in your own time. I don’t believe it has a definitive end, but I do hope that time will help. Take care.
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