I’m 39, been a Dads girl my whole life. He was my strength and got me through difficult times. I lost him to suicide in April. I miss him so much it hurts. He was my hero my whole life 
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I’m sorry @Lynnbug
I adore my dad, too. The world suddenly became a very scary place when he departed a year ago. His passing was also fairly sudden - a cardiac arrest after which he had hypoxic brain unjury and didn’t regain consciousness.
They live on in us. They inspire us every day. It’s little consolation, when we don’t have the physical being here, to talk to and hug.
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I’m sorry for your loss too,
You’re right, the world does often feel like a scary place - It sometimes feels like being a little girl again, needing Dad to comfort me but he’s not here.
I find my comfort in the same places as you. He lives within me, and is still around. We’ll see them again 
Thank you
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Thank you @Lynnbug, I forgot to say that I was 39 at the time, now 40. It feels far too young, although I know people younger who’ve lost their dad.
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Hello @Lynnbug ,
I am so sorry for the loss of your dad that brings you here.
I wanted to share some sources of support that might help you right now.
- Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide offer support to people over 18 who have been affected by suicide. They have a supportline on 0300 111 5065 and run support groups nationally.
- Support after Suicide has a list of local and national support.
You might also want to explore our Online Bereavement Support, where you find our Grief Guide self-help platform, our Grief Coach text support service, and how to access our Online Bereavement Counselling.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Abi
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I’m not on this website because I lost my father, but mine died when was 27 (I’m now in my 60s). I am not going to sugar coat it. It will colour your whole life. However, it will be something you learn to live with. You will go through all the emotions from A - Z, but that is completely normal. All I can advise is go with it. What you are feeling is completely normal although you are going to feel like the only person in the world going through this. Come on here. This site has been a gift for me. To be able to vent to people who know exactly how I am feeling, without having to burden my friends and family has been a godsend. We all understand. You are now part of the shittiest club ever, but we are all here for you.
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Thank you so much
I’m so sorry, from a felllow Daddys girl - I lost my absolute world, too. I lost my Dad to cancer and while it wasn’t as sudden as suicide it still killed me.
I lost my Mum to suicide 2 years before my Dad died so I can understand how it feels to lose someone so close to you to suicide, if you ever need anyone to chat to feel free to message me. Losing someone to suicide is incredibly hard to navigate. Lots of love x
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Thats incredibly kind of you, thank you so much. Some days I’m ok, I feel like I’m starting to accept what happened and I can find comfort in my faith and belief that Dad is still here in spirit form. Some days I feel scared. Some days I can’t move, as if Iv’e been frozen, and some days the pain is intense and I cry hard.
I’m so sorry you’ve been through so much pain losing both parents. I’ve never lost anyone close to cancer, but I have witnessed it a lot through my work so I know it can be a very traumatic way to lose someone as well. Sending you so much love, thank you again for your kindness 