I miss my dad

Losing a parent
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My dad passed May 2022 very suddenly. He was in a bad accident, died instantly and due to his injuries, I had to confirm his ID from a photo at “the best angle” possible. I never saw him again. Only that one photo which I can’t seem to remember now.
A few days after he died, I found out I was pregnant. I’ve only ever wanted 1 child so this would be my only pregnancy. I think I suppressed everything so I didn’t cry or feel anything during pregnancy, then life took over with a newborn. My daughter is now 2 and everyday I feel such sadness and wish my dad was here. We were so close. I still cry everyday, I’m not sure if I had/have postpartum depression or I just feel down all the time. I have a great supportive husband but like he tells me, he has no idea how I’m feeling, how it is to loose a parent.

I was my dad’s next of kin, I dealt with everything financially, physically (car, house, belongings) and planned his funeral. I sat at the inquest at 30 weeks pregnant.
Thank you for reading

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I am so very sorry - grief is such a hard burden to bear. I lost my son recently and slowly, very slowly I am starting to believe love and grief are on the same continuum, and every moment of grief we feel is equal to all the love we have for the person we have lost. I believe it is my job to carry my son’s memory forward - make sure he is never forgotten, to carry his love on in this world. I so hope you can take a little comfort in telling your daughter all about your dear dad, creating memories for her. It is so very hard, no one can know how you feel, but as someone else griefing, I wanted to send you love.

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