It’s my 19th birthday in 2 days and I really miss my mum. She passed on Christmas Eve in 2022 by drowning in the bath. She was not the best mum, nobody is. She was mentally ill and struggling, and I miss her. I don’t care who she was or what she did I just miss my mum. I just want my mum here, like she always was. I know I won’t ever see her again, but I just really wish she was here right now. She never got to see me get into University this year. I hate that one day I’ll have known my friends longer than I did my own mother. I just wish I could’ve done something, and I can’t get over the guilt I could’ve done something different. I just really want my mum back. Sorry for blabbering, I just don’t want to burden anyone with this and just want someone to listen to me.
Hi @caprim
I am so sorry you lost your mum far too young and I understand how you will feel going forward in each of your special days as you miss her during all those special times in life. My 4 kids have lost their dad and it breaks my heart to see them so sad and missing him so much.
Please don’t feel guilty - it’s not your fault. I’m sure your mum loved you and would want you to live your best life, however hard that is at the moment. I’m sure she is proud of you for getting into Uni.
Don’t hold all that sadness in - do you have someone that you could talk to ? You are certainly not a burden and so please keep posting on here. It’s good to know you are not alone and there is lots of support and kindness from people who understand.
Sending lots of love and strength xxx