I miss my son so much I lost my 14year old son in a tracing accident on 19th April 2018 and I just still can’t come to terms with the fact he is gone I have a 5 year old daughter and a 20 month old son who I was pregnant with when my son passed they are the reason I get out of bed everyday or am even still here I feel so guilty tho at the same time the fact that I am still here with out my boy I beat myself up so much about it how can a mother carry on when he boy isn’t here I go the cemetery every single day I need to it’s like I feel if he is looking down he knows how much a live and miss him if he sees me goin to see him every day it’s comin up to 2 years in April I am feeling so low I just want to know why my boy my amazin perfect boy I am so angry !!
Hi im sorry for your loss 
i understand the feeling of why your son i have the same thoughts. We have a memorial garden for our and we light a candle every night for him and if were away we get a neighbour to light on for us.
It’s just so hard people thing ur ok because I get up everyday get my kids to school but I have no choice no no one sees how much I am struggling and how hard it is the pain seems to be gettin worse as time goes on 
xx
Hi Lynsey your so right its hard to see people just carrying on i get told so many times that time is a great healer but its been 16yrs and for me its got harder every yr even my brothers tell me i need to get on with my life. I do try to hide just how hard things are from people my other children are grown up now so its not easy to hide just what a struggle life is. If people ask how many kids ive got i say 4, 3 i can hold and 1 in my heart .x
It’s so hard, I lost my son 6 month ago, the only good thing about this lock down we can’t go anywhere, I don’t want to go out, I cry myself to sleep every night, wish sometimes I wasn’t here, so I don’t have to feel this pain anymore, the hurt and pain , I’m going though, just miss him so much, I send him a message every morning on messenger , just think and hoping he might just message me back and this is all one big nighmare