15 days ago I lost my husband suddenly of a massive heart attack, no warning. He was 53. I was so shocked and think I still am. The funeral is in just over a week and I’m dreading it. I cry all the time, I just want him back, I want to wake up from this nightmare.
We had a dream to build our forever home on a beautiful piece of land in Scotland, we had been dreaming and planning for it for 10 years ever since we purchased the land. One and a half years ago we moved into a static caravan on the site while we built the house which we have only just started.
All our family are down south but we were so happy, it was a struggle but we had each other and that is all we needed. Now I am alone, I have no friends here, it’s very isolated, I can’t stay here but I have nowhere to go, I’m so scared of the future without him. I just want to join him, I won’t because I’m too much of a coward but I can’t do this alone.
@Lindy3 I’m so sorry for your loss, my husband passed aged 56, too early also and I understand all your feelings. It’s such early days for you as yet and I imagine you are still in shock to a degree, that will take time. Do you have family who maybe you could stay with for a while just so you have people with you? It’s been 11 weeks for me and so my advice is limited but I’m just trying to take one day at a time. Most importantly make sure you take care of yourself, eat well (if you can I know I lost my appetite but you need to eat), sleep (as much as you can, if you can) grief is physically exhausting and keep hydrated, I had so many headaches from all the crying. This forum is amazing, we all understand your pain so reach out on here whenever you need to, you are not alone x
Lindy,
I am so so sorry for your loss, I know how you must be feeling. I know how isolated you must be, take one day at a time, make sure you eat . I lost my husband in October, I was only married 12 years and I moved away from family and friends. I had only two people in my house the first month that came to my door, I have friends and family but not where I live now. The loneliness was scary but I made it. I had to wait a month before the funeral, I was a zombie, slept on the couch and lived off biscuits. It was only after the funeral I started trying to think things through. I am going through a horrible probate due to it being a second marriage and I am waiting on legal documents to be able to sell my house and move back to be near my family and friends. I do FaceTime a lot which helps, it’s still too raw for you at this stage. This site helps a lot, please keep chatting, we will help you get through this horrible journey in our life. Sending hugs 
Hi Lindy 3
My sincere condolences on the loss of your husband, nothing makes sense at the moment and you are feeling very lonely, there are friends on here who you can talk to and it helps. Can you reach out to the family down south it may help. Do you have someone to help you with the arrangements i hope so Lindy. My heart goes out to you.
I lost my David November 24, no children, married 31 years just the 2 of us and our
dog. I too am lost, in limbo, anger,
frustration, sadness all the emotions, my
siblings are up north 264 miles from me, but
they all travelled to me for the service and sorted out paperwork for that i am forever grateful, now they call and skype i feel loved. You are not alone Lindy please remember that.
Hugs
Hugs
loved.
i do not know you. but as a female on her own, please do not abide by storybooks where the brave independent woman carries on the dream and all that nonsense. you probably cannot do it all alone. i wouldnt. that was a dream with him there. quite sure you would not attempt this on your own.
if it were me, i would sell and get out of it. and move home again closer to family. it is no good a woman being on her own. i am and it is just plain awful.
you are young yet. it may be one day you create a new life for yourself. but you obviously will not be creating this life, the one you planned with him.
i am truly sorry for your loss. it is sad and no fun. you are worth more though. do not forget that.