Hi Yvonne, thankyou for your message, and I’m very sorry to hear of your loss, can I ask how long ago that was? My husband also died very suddenly 9 weeks ago at home, first thing in the morning laughing and joking got out of bed and literally dropped dead on the landing - now I’m getting flashbacks and can see him laying there. Yesterday I had a bereavement checkup with my GP and I’m now trying out Citalopram, didn’t want to go down that line but my children advised me to.
Everything that you have said is the same for me, and it is very reassuring to know we aren’t going crazy. This has got to be one of the worst things we will ever go through, and I’m sure our husbands are watching over us and are proud the way we are coping.
I hope you have a support network around you, my children and grandchildren keep me going and surprisingly my 90 year old mother is a real support which has amazed me. Like you I feel very vulnerable which is a totally new experience as I was also a very confident assertive person, but I now feel more like a child again.
I do hope you are getting along ok Yvonne, and I totally 100% understand how you are feeling.