I lost my partner last year but it still feels like yesterday I wake up in the morning with knots in my stomach knowing that I have to go on without him he was my soul mate my life and I miss him so much.I still cant look at pictures of him or smell his after shave or any if his clothes it hurts it still so raw
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I just wanted to say thank you for sharing, how you are feeling, I lost my partner of 40 years suddenly in August 24
I feel so many emotions thru out the days , hours that I feel exhausted.
My heart aches with the loss of my soulmate, I don’t know who I am without him, I am back to work but find myself putting on a mask of okay ness , when I am screaming inside, with loneliness and hurt. I feel it is getting easier some days, and then boom it it’s from nowhere and I am back in the blackness of utter pain.
Big hugs 
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Just wanted to let you know that your not alone in this, i too lost my beloved husband on 23rd November 2024 to cancer, he was 50, i had 4 weeks with him from the diagnosis.
My life is empty now and i just want him back, I miss him so much.
So sorry for your loss
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Thank you I’m so sorry to hear about your husband my heart goes out to you. I met my Paul at work in 1995 we were together for 29 years and when I retired I was looking forward to spending some quality time together but it never happen because my Pauls health declined and over the space of three years he was in hospital more than home and I was called by the hospitals several times telling me that it may be the last time I will see him but when he recovered he told me that I was his rock and he didn’t want to leave me on my own bless him.He was my rock and got me through a lot of truma it was so horrible to see a 6ft 8in big softie crumble and break down I miss him so much.I keep being told that it gets better and you will get over it all I no is that the longer I am without him the more pain I feel. I hope there is a world when you pass on where you find your loved ones and that I will be able to find him or that he is waiting for me Love you Paul always miss you so much xx
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Hello Ter
Just that word Soul Mate is so beautiful to me there are not a lot of couples that can say that and I’m so sorry that you lost your partner so suddenly.Sometimes when I’m on my own I feel like screaming out my Pauls name hoping he can hear me and how much I miss him.I found that you can be surrounded by people you no and still feel alone grief is such a personal thing and it’s hard to explain how your feeling Iv’e even cried on a bus when a car went bye playing a song we both loved grief hits you when you least expect it
Big Hugs to you back and thank you
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I lost my darling man on 1st January 2025. I adored him despite the rollercoaster of emotions he went through daily but I knew how to deal will them. He was the person I was supposed to be with. I’m finding things harder. It’s just struck me that it’s not about getting through a day or a week but this is forever. Nothing can ever make it better. I have support and love in my life but he is gone and when that hits me I can’t bear the thought of always feeling like this. I know that time will heal but will it really. He will never be in my life again and I am utterly lost without him.
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Hello Gina
I’m so sorry that you have lost the love of your life and yes it’s hard to get your head around the fact that they have gone.It’s been over a year since I lost my partner and it still feels like yesterday and there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about him.Its sounds like you and your partner went through a lot together and you where his rock which is hard on your emotions and heart when you really love someone and you need to keep strong for them .I keep being told that time is a great healer all I can say is you will never forget him, the pain won’t hit you so hard, and you will have days that make you cry but embrace these days you have been through a lot and you need to grieve
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@Cydney thank you so much for such a lovely response. I really appreciate you taking the time to reply to me. I know I need to be gentle and kind to myself while I grieve but it’s just so hard. I snuggled up with our dog right now and my heart break for him that his daddy isn’t coming home. I’m just so sad for the life we have lost. But thank for your time and support 
Hello Gina
Your not on your own Im here for you if you need to talk and thank for those lovely words that means a lot to me
Take Care
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