I'm stuck on my friends death

Coping with bereavement
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Hello all.

My friend took his own life a little over six months ago. It shook our circle as is expected. We’d been close friends for over 5 years and spoke almost daily. Including the day it happened.

My friends and I all kept eachother company for a good few weeks, and most of the group seem to have regained balance, which I’m very pleased to see.

But I haven’t gone a day without thinking about it. I struggle to sleep every night because I just keep imagining the events on repeat.

I don’t rightly know what to do. My friends are caring people but I can’t bring myself to talk to them or my partner. I feel somewhere between guilty and embarrassed for feeling how I do. And, although logically I know there wasn’t anything I could do with my lack of omnipotence, I feel like I could have changed something.

Any advice or recommended services would be greatly appreciated. And apologies for the long read.

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I’m sorry to hear about your friend, @BubsBubby. Thank you for reaching out - I hope you find the community to be a support to you.

You’ve asked for some services that might be helpful. I know many of our members who have lost someone to suicide have found these organisations helpful:

You might also want to explore our Online Bereavement Support, where you find our Grief Guide self-help platform, and how to access our Online Bereavement Counselling.

Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take care,
Seaneen

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