My darling husband died suddenly 9 months ago after a year of sudden weaknesses caused my motor neurone disease. I felt I lost him then. I’ve never experienced that much pain and loss ,even though I lost my father, brother and sister years back. I have a supportive family and friends. Every one was extremely worried about me. I found this forum and read people stories which resonated with me.
I miss my husband, we had a happy life, 21 years.
Now the strangest thing happened. I had an unplanned coincincidence meet with an old friend when I was 20. He loved me then, never had a relationship. We never saw each other or spoke in the last 30 years.first thing he said how he loved me and still does. I told him about my loss how I cannot love again. Fast forward 4 weeks, I now have feelings for him. I still love my husband.
What is this? Could I be betraying my sweet husband, is it real Feelings or I’m just missing my husband. I don’t see this my old friend face to face as he went back to his country. I miss him. Never been intimate with him. Can I really fall in love? Is it too soon, not even a year has passed. I loved my husband more because he loved me so much. I don’t understand how much I’m falling for my old friend. He knows how much i loved my husband from what I told him. Say your mind, thank you.