At first when I received the news of my step dads death it was a huge punch to the chest I couldn’t breathe I couldn’t speak, move nor could I cry I was frozen in my own body. He was killed in an accident on the motorway. How do you ever get over this?
I’m struggling with this too, as my mother died suddenly 3 weeks ago. Its so final and we have no say in it at all, our loved ones are just gone and only memories to live with. No goodbye’s. People keep saying it gets easier in time so that is what I am hoping for, another quote, its early days.