Inner turmoil

So this weekend my younger sister and I spent time with our parents, giving our other 2 siblings who are their on hand carers, a break. Our eldest 2 sisters …… I’m one of six…… joined us for a few hours.
Plenty of general chit chat but despite the impression I was giving, I felt I was on the outside looking in on everything.
My parents are 90 and 87 and naturally when they ask how I am I would never worry them so it’s always the go to answer ‘ yes I’m fine’
I know when I lose my parents I will be devastated but the whole weekend highlighted that there is no guarantees in life.
I feel awful that I was having these thoughts of how life is unfair and my husband at the age of 60 is not with me anymore.

Thank you for listening.


Thank you for sharing so openly and honestly here @Dee64 - the way you are feeling is completely understandable.

You may have already seen these but just in case you haven’t, I thought I would share a link to a page on our website which contains a number of support articles for those experiencing bereavement and grief. I hope they will help a little even if just to assure you that how you are feeling is not abnormal.

Keep on reaching out - please know that you’re not alone.

Take care,

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