I lost my Mum on 1st March 16 years ago when I was 24. Although I cope with it a lot better as time has gone on, I can’t seem to get over the dread of February. It brings back very vivid memories of her last month, of constantly being told by the doctor that she didn’t have long left, seeing her lying in bed and not being able to speak, and finally watching her take her last breath. Although she died 1st March, it’s February that I really hate and every year, I can’t wait for it to be over. I get emotional at the smallest, silliest things and feel down all month, which isn’t like me at all.
Is it normal to feel more anxiety and upset in the build up to the anniversary rather than the anniversary itself?