For the last few days I have been settled, at one with the world , (well after the online service during which Helen was mentioned.) BUT
- The person who “I am so sorry to hear about Helen, I don’t know what you are feeling, you must be devastated,” Now Martin our priest had been full on with the sequence of events and of our feelings," but this person must have had a kettle boiling, and missed some of the plot" as I expected that you’de rather not dwell on it". They go to a group and start owning my thoughts words etc saying on how I ought to be left at this time. 2. Of the 8, 4 have a discussion and resolved to get other congregation friends to watch me as I am heading for a breakdown.
- 3 walk over “oh I say we just heard”, motivation?? , (my hidden thought pse go away),
That was Sunday,
2 days then of comparatively being at peace resolved on the way to coming to terms. Pleasant convivial etc.
THEN Bevis and Buthead husbands of two in the 8, well the burns from the spyglass pressed towards my kneck are the catalyst, the conversation of “he’s close to emotional breakdown”, and today I am snapping at silly things.
I am angry because they expect and are wanting me to fulfill their needs.