Is it me or them?

Simce my boyfriend of 10 years died 20/5/21 36 years old I’ve been having a hard time accepting his death aswell as now suffering PTSD depression and anxiety whilst also being a mum to my 12 year old son who’s also lost his stepdAad and his grandad , my dad who died 5/10/21 we live next door to him and my mum who To be blunt has just been one nasty c*^t since my Lee died she wasn’t sad when my dad died as she looked after him the last few years so she seen. My dads death as a relief. Her and her sister ho are very close have been supporting 2 of there 4 brothers who also recently lost their wives. Now while their so supportive to them they know I’m not handling
It well but haven’t had one bit of support or empathy from them the rest of the family or so called friends the one person who’s been there for me is my son my mum and auntie tAlk about me to everyone as if I’m sum lazy selfish person when I’m not at. All they are do selfish my mum wants sympathy or money off ilother people if your not giving her that then your no use to her. Alls I’ve wanted is a bit of understanding I MC stead of being told by the 2 of them I need to get a job or ‘sort myself out’ to me it feels in away like bulllyimg I’m an easy target because I have no one if told them how I Ferl but got talked about even more an made out I’m paranoid an that I’m a liar when I’m not!

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Hi @Hayley198894,

I’m so sorry to hear about your boyfriend, It sounds as though things are very tough at the moment and you are feeling very overwhelmed with limited support.

I’m glad that you’ve been able to share how you are feeling here and I hope that you find the community a good source of support. Everyone here has experienced the loss of a loved one and will understand some of what you are going through.

We also offer further support which you might want to take a look at. Our Online Bereavement Support includes our free online bereavement counselling, our Grief Guide which has interactive tools to help you cope with grief, and Grief Coach, where you can receive personalised support via text.

Take care - keep reaching out,

Online Community Team

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