My mind is in such a state of confusion. My brain knows he’s gone but my heart is telling me that he’ll be there when I pop to my nans. That he’ll just come downstairs like he always did to say a quick hi. But then my head and heart catch up with each other and I struggle. Like I’m at war with myself about wanting to and not wanting to believe he’s gone.
What you are going through and experiencing is normal and part of the grieving process. With the loss of a loved one, it is hard to accept they will not be coming back. No one wants to believe their loved one has gone forever. In time you learn to accept they are not coming back.
Take one day at a time and be gentle with yourself. Take care and continue to reach out, you are not alone, we are all here for you and we all understand what you are going through.