I just talked to Philmore’s father and he is so weak and sick. He is almost 100 years old and his wife has dementia and is also weak. I am so worried that there will be another funeral soon. Since they lost their second son (my lovely Philmore) they have both gone downhill fast and there is nothing I can do to help them. My neighbour’s daughter died recently and her funeral was on Tuesday and her hearse was in front of the house. It brought sad memories again (although the sad memories never leave me anyway). The next day was an ambulance in front of another neighbour’s house which reminded me of the night my Philmore died. I dream almost every night about our last visit to his parents ( Sunday 15. January 2023). I still can see how his father in front of the ground floor flat and waving, not knowing that he would see Philmore the last time. I do not understand why we are all punished in that horrible way to lose our lovely husbands, wives, and family members. I am so sorry for rambling again but I have no one to talk to and I am still waiting for counseling. Sending hugs and love to everyone.
You can always reach out to us. We are all living this nightmare together. So sorry you are going through all of this. My husband passed 9 weeks ago and I have been debating about counseling. Hugs sent your way
Hi @Annaessex @Marla56
So sorry for your losses.
Yesterday my next door neighbour came as he thought his wife was having a TIA attack and he had called ambulance for his wife.
Seeing the ambulance outside my house brouhht back memories of 8 months ago when my husband passed away suddenly at home do know how you feel. Fortunately after bring taken to hospital they came home in the morning as it wasn’t a TIA.
Really life is so unpredictable and we dont know whats ahead but it is hard having to deal with everything on your own.
I dont have family here and have a few friends who call me weekly so have started to look at joining clubs to meet new friends.
I am waiting for councelling and told it woukd be about April till i see someone my husbsnd passed in June 2023 quite a wait here.
Anyway take care
Lynne x
So sorry about your loss. I also have no family around me. It’s tough going on this dark journey by yourself. I work and have some friends there, but no one understands the loneliness until you actually go through this. Maybe I will look for groups. Sending hugs your way
Hi @Marla56
I stay near Edinburgh in Scotland and i have joined the Jolly Dollies group in my area. Maybe you could check if there is one in your area you could join too.
Lynne x
Hello lynn. Do you know if jolly Dollie’s are in Fife. I have tried to find groups in my area but could only find cruse step by step and small bereavement group at church. Take care Diane x