Lost my mum
On January 29 from surgery complications. She was breathing fine at the ICU and j was sure she was gonna make it… but now she is gone and I feel so lost. I’m so angry and sad that I have to be strong for my younger siblings and dad. I want to scream! I keep begging my mum to come back. I wish I hugged her more, took more pictures with her. I love her so much and she loved me a lot - my weirdness and my confusion. She was very supportive and did everything just to see me happy. My mom was sooo beautiful I was almost jealous. She was only 55.
I keep consoling myself, telling myself to be grateful I had all the time to take care of her…I tell my siblings that she is happy we spent the last days with her, cleaning her, feeding her, and showering her with love… but deep down, I wish I had done more to save her.
I just want to feel her warmth around me. I want her to come back and tell us it was a prank. My mum was so pretty, kind, gentle, always minded her business… very hardworking. She went through a lot trying to give us the best…
And now she is gone!
Is it true that our dead loved ones become angels watching over us? Is my mum an Angel now? Is she with us? Can she see us? How do I make her proud cos right now, I confused. I feel so empty - like a big part of me is gone.
I just want my mommy!!!