Hi
Thank you for looking at my story. I feel the depth of pain I have never had before, my Heartbreak, Loss.
My story is one of deep heartbreak. My wife, my best friend, and the loving mother of our children, passed away at just 38 years old. She was ill, and I gave everything I had to save her, but it wasn’t enough. I was left behind with our four children, trying to figure out how to navigate life as a single dad. The weight of it all felt unbearable, like there was no road ahead for me.
Not long after, I lost my mum and dad too. The grief was overwhelming, and it felt like the world was closing in on me from all sides. People would tell me, “You still have your children,” or “You need to be strong for them.” And while I knew they were right, those words felt hollow when I was drowning in my own pain. It’s easy for others to say, “Keep going,” or “Think of the children,” but in those moments of deep loss, even the simplest tasks felt impossible.
There were many times when I wanted to give up. I played out scenarios in my head where I no longer had to endure the constant ache of loss. Every day, every minute, the pain was relentless, and all I wanted was for it to stop. There were nights I lay awake, wishing I could turn back the clock to when life was full of happiness and love. I wish I could have saved my wife. I wish I could have been stronger.
But here I am—still here, still struggling. Some days, it feels like I’m just surviving, taking it one day at a time. The road ahead is long, hard, and lonely. Yet, despite everything, I remain on this road, not because it’s easy, but because I must.
In my darkest hours, I’ve found help in unexpected places—from strangers, from therapists, from bereavement support groups. I’m doing what I can to keep going, for my children, for myself. It’s far from easy, but I’m trying, and that’s all I can do.
To anyone reading this who has shown me kindness, offered support, or simply listened—thank you. Your compassion means more than you know.
With love and gratitude,
A struggling but determined father.
My story carries immense strength. Sharing it will undoubtedly resonate with others who have faced similar struggles. You’re doing an incredible job by reaching out and taking steps toward healing, and that is something to be deeply proud of.
I am here and I am still going, thanks for dropping in.
Lots of love to you and your family and hopefully the fact I am still here and still going will give you strength.
Lots of love and hugs.
will pass…lots of love.