Its been 4 months 3 weeks and 5 days since i lost my son Aaron. Every single day is like torture im dreading Christmas and dont want to even do it at all. Would just be happy if i could sleep the day away and forget all about it but then there is my other 2 children who need me so much. Aaron was 34 and died in a,van fire which was an accidental death i I still think im in a nightmare thats not real and eventually going to wake up from it and that everything is ok and he is back wuth his children


Hi @Sue3p ,

Thank you so much for sharing this with the community :blue_heart: I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.

Take good care,

I am so sorry to read your post, I think I have messaged you before. There is no answer I can give you, apart from be kind to yourself, do what you can. The pain I know is horrendous. I’m not sure how I will get through Christmas but remember it’s one day and we have all gone through worst days than that. Take care xx

Yes you have and i thankyou so much for your reply. Im trying so hard not to think about Christmas just want the day to be over and done with. One day at a time xx

Yep one day at a time is all we can do, deep breaths, and if needed minute by minute rule applies😀sending you big hugs❤️ xx

Thankyou so much back at you xxxxxxx

I am so sorry to read this and so sorry for your loss. I completely understand that you feel you are living in a nightmare that you just cant wake up from. I am also feeling a bit like you at the moment. I really dont want to do Christmas this year at all i wish it would just pass. Also like you i have 2 other children so i need to be happy for them but i just dont feel like it this year.

I just feel totally miserable all the time and feel there is no joy or hope anymore and i feel really guilty because of ny other 2 children who also need me. When aaron died i died as well. Im not the same person anymore .i dont smile i dont laugh just totally lifeless and depressed

It really does completely change you as a person. I am sending you hugs. Aaron will be looking down on you and he wouldnt want to see you feel that way. I know its a lot harder to pretend to be happy and sometimes we do pretend. I am always here if anyone feels they need to share anything or talk about anything.

Hi Sue, I’m so sorry to hear of your loss and I send you a big virtual hug. I rarely read on here now as it makes me so upset.
I lost my son just over a year ago and feel every emotion you write, My only advice is to hold tight, hug and love his children, which is what he’d want. My little ones are 18mths and 3 1/2 years old. xxx

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