Hiya
I lost my brother four weeks ago, on 11 January. He passed away in a hospital in New Zealand. I flew out to be with him and I watched him deteriorate for 9 days, and finally take his last breaths. We were able to speak to each other for a few days when I arrived before he started to sleep most days. He knew I was there. I hugged him alive and after he died cold in the hospital. I was also there alone, but I had to push through all my fear because I would never have let him die alone so it was a privilege to be there. I’ve just returned to the UK with his ashes. He was only 45. I am so glad he is now home in England, but now I feel totally bereft. I feel like I don’t know what the point of life is anymore. We were best friends. He was my number one cheerleader in life, and I, his. We were so loyal to each other. I don’t have that relationship with anyone else. I have nice friends, and a good rest of wider extended family but not like we were. I am so worried about my future and how I’ll cope. Thanks for listening. Charlotte
I lost my brother 5 months ago. And only now just starting to live with the grief. It is becoming just a little bit easier. But I too sometimes feel lost and what purpose is my life without him. I too have my brother’s ashes he sits next to me in the lounge and it gives me a little comfort knowing he is there. But I know the day will come were I will need to set him free. X
So sorry for your loss. Lost my mum 7 days ago and I’m
Still numb and empty
Doy so sorry this can be such a cruel world I unfortunately lost both my parents 10 years ago now. And each year on birthdays and dates they passed away can still be very emotional especially mothers day. You are in the very early stages of grief.
It’s indeed a cruel world. I know the dates are going to be hard. We I’ll lay her to rest on Valentine’s Day. I still can’t believe she’s gone. Do you have another sibling?
I only have one older brother left now all my family members have passed away not one made it to 80 so as you can guess I worry for my future. Myself and my older brother never were that close but since my other brother passed away we have become very close we talk on the phone at least 4 times a week.
Hi Charlotte, I’m so sorry for your loss. Those words can’t convey the depths of devastation losing your brother creates in your heart and soul. I lost my young brother to cancer 2 years ago. I too was with him at the end of his life, and he was very peacefully asleep due to the drugs he was given in hospice, but I believed he could hear me and I spoke to him a lot in those last hours, telling him I was there and that I knew this was not the end. I hope you had deep comfort being there with your brother at the end of his life, and like you, I felt it was a privilege to be there. I miss my brother every day, and I think a close sibling relationship just can’t be replicated, but I am glad for the love and lifelong friendship we shared. Please take good care of yourself, think of what your brother would want for you and take every day as it comes. Surround yourself with people who love you and will be there for you. Nothing will ever be the same but it can still be positive once the grief is less raw. Thinking of you. x