Its been a few months since I lost my twin to the cancer. It has been pain like no other since. And whilst at times I just dont understand how I cope, and how all of our friends and family do it too, I am also trying to be present in other peoples grief.
My now very good friend, lost his brother about two months before we met properly and before I lost my twin. And I guess we often share what its like for us and how surreal it is that life just kinda keeps going, but it ofen doesn’t feel sincere in a way.
In the same way, our family doesnt really seem to talk about how we are coping, its mostly just good and laughable memories we have of my twin. Which of course is wonderful. In spite of eveything we just kept going, but sometimes i just wish we could be a bit more open with each other.
Maybe i feel this way because i am always trying to be open about my feelings with other people, so when I am struggling, i am open about it.
Sometimes I just dont know. Noone really tells you that trying to heal and go through grief is going to be so confusing at times… I am grateful I found this platform where i just get to share things that i want to share.